Inside my head Tectonic plates Move shift bang into each other The screaming, furious Lava spews Fear Ugly memories Hot grief Steaming fright The silent scream rolls over all As it spews Angry, escaping Burning everything is rolls over black and ashen Like The deep cave in my head Where the bad things go
An oldie and still great
Is this America and Americans now? …silent?
Inside my head Tectonic plates Move shift bang into each other The screaming, furious Lava spews Fear Ugly memories Hot grief Steaming fright The silent scream rolls over all As it spews Angry, escaping Burning everything is rolls over black and ashen Like The deep cave in my head Where the bad things go
Trump has said, among other things, that is he up in American ratings, that the economy is better than ever Trump says absolutely anything he wants without regard to facts. He’s a liar. He’s a pathological liar who doesn’t even know when he is or isn’t telling the truth; his proclaimed extensive vocabulary seems to be his own delusion as ‘great, fantastic, amazing’ are middle school words. He’s inarticulate. His…
I imagine My birth Was I screaming or terrified Did I know then It just unfolded And crumbled I wasn’t there In my mind In anyone’s thought Super girl in academics And naturally athletic Not loved at home Not belonging The welfare girl Smarter than her family Hate seed was planted against me Fuck You Kathleen Did you feed that seed? Did you decide to hate yourself
MY NOTES FOR MY THERAPIST REALLY….CAN I GET A BREAK Hi Candace, Below is the journal I kept this week to share with you yesterday but was unable to because I was still rattled about my nightmares. I apologize for being abrupt. Praise heaven, I slept really well, peacefully, a full 7 uninterrupted hours to wake feeling refreshed!! I have less trepidation about going to sleep now. …
Irony/Observation Children begin completely dependent upon a parent(s) well into high school. Children need strong guidance, love, advice, limitations and space while they are neither fish nor fowl. College Parents often receive little communication. This is the normal pattern of life. They begin to form their own vision of themselves. All college breaks, young college students only want to spend time with friends. Post-College Many children return home after graduating…
MY SIDE it’s not liquor Drugs Substances It’s me People should avoid damaged people We can’t fix ourselves We don’t understand what broke When it broke Why it was broken We don’t even remember all the tank shots that hit us It’s a body\mind way of trying to protect 0urselves From the worst The worst Too horrible to bring up Leave it It’s always there Don’t look We don’t look…
July 22, 2018 12:32 am He goes to sleep between 7:30 pm-9-pm. He’s awake though now. He woke at his usual time of 4am. I know he’s exhausted. But … I’m watched I get from the couch to pee ‘What’s wrong? What do you need? What are you doing” This is a hybrid seed Grown Begun Fractured DNA He doesn’t travel outside the USA His various issues And then I…