I imagine

My birth

Was I screaming or terrified 

Did I know then

It just unfolded 

And crumbled 

I wasn’t there 

In my mind

In anyone’s thought 

Super girl in academics

And naturally athletic 

Not loved at home

Not belonging 

The welfare girl

Smarter than her family 

Hate seed was planted against me

Fuck You Kathleen

Did you feed that seed?

Did you decide to hate yourself

Kat