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The Volcano is Quieting

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Inside my head Tectonic plates Move shift bang into each other The screaming, furious Lava spews Fear  Ugly memories  Hot grief Steaming fright  The silent scream rolls over all As it spews  Angry, escaping  Burning everything is rolls over black and ashen Like The deep cave in my head Where the bad things go

My Middle Name is Drama, Dang It!

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My midname is drama even when I’m doing the most innocent thing. Ugh. I called port authority at GWB to find out rules for walking on bridge-lots of people actually commute to work via bicycle over bridge. So I got info and where to park to then walk to entrance. Well I couldn’t find either, but I saw a Fort Lee cop and asked. He was helpful and showed me…

Broken

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JUST BROKEN – THAT’S ENOUGH TO KNOW it’s not liquor  Drugs Substances It’s me People should avoid damaged people  We can’t fix ourselves  We don’t understand what broke When it broke Why it was broken  We don’t even remember all the tank shots that hit us It’s a body\mind way of trying to protect s From the worst  The worst Too horrible to bring up Leave it It’s always there…

THE PRETENDER

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Trump has said, among other things, that is he up in American ratings, that the economy is better than ever Trump says absolutely anything he wants without regard to facts. He’s a liar. He’s a pathological liar who doesn’t even know when he is or isn’t telling the truth; his proclaimed extensive vocabulary seems to be his own delusion as ‘great, fantastic, amazing’ are middle school words. He’s inarticulate. His…

Emersion

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I imagine My birth Was I screaming or terrified  Did I know then It just unfolded  And crumbled  I wasn’t there  In my mind In anyone’s thought  Super girl in academics And naturally athletic  Not loved at home Not belonging  The welfare girl Smarter than her family  Hate seed was planted against me Fuck You Kathleen Did you feed that seed? Did you decide to hate yourself  

Paradox aka Life’s Shit

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Irony/Observation  Children begin completely dependent upon a parent(s) well into high school. Children need strong guidance, love, advice, limitations and space while they are neither fish nor fowl.  College Parents often receive little communication. This is the normal pattern of life. They begin to form their own vision of themselves.  All college breaks, young college students only want to spend time with friends.  Post-College Many children return home after graduating…

The Broken

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MY SIDE it’s not liquor  Drugs Substances It’s me People should avoid damaged people  We can’t fix ourselves  We don’t understand what broke When it broke Why it was broken  We don’t even remember all the tank shots that hit us It’s a body\mind way of trying to protect 0urselves From the worst  The worst Too horrible to bring up Leave it It’s always there Don’t look We don’t look…

FISH BOWL

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July 22, 2018 12:32 am He goes to sleep between 7:30 pm-9-pm. He’s awake though now. He woke at his usual time of 4am. I know he’s exhausted. But … I’m watched  I get from the couch to pee ‘What’s wrong? What do you need? What are you doing” This is a hybrid seed Grown Begun Fractured DNA He doesn’t travel outside the USA  His various issues And then I…

STOP THE HATE

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One tin soldier Listen people to a story That was written long ago, ’bout a kingdom on a mountain And the valley folks below. On the mountain was a treasure Hidden deep beneath a stone, And the valley people swore They’d have it for their very own. Go ahead and hate your neighbor, Go ahead and cheat a friend. Do it in the name of heaven, You can justify it…

The Black Hole in Your Bra

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The Black Hole in your Bra  So many of us women use our bra as a pocket. We might put a $20 bill in there for emergency, a key, etc. Well, I was going to an event a in risky neighborhood so I took my diamond jewelry – my 3 carat engagement ring, my 3 1/2 carat forever-ring and my 10 carat tennis bracelet. Ugh ugh ugh. I forgot that…