34 years ago! Where did the time go. Interesting to see who in the video is still alive, Willie Nelson is now 87! It seems the weed has kept him long-lived, still excellent voice with its medicinal value but his face has crumpled like mine. Ugh. 🙄🤣 Live Aid 1985 was billed as the ‘global jukebox’. The event was held simultaneously at Wembley Stadium in London England attended by 72,000…


Come inside! After last year’s “Lost Holidays” (below), I completely amped up the volume on Christmas this year …. and I’m delighted! Ho Ho Happy and Blessed. May you all be blessed with love, health and abundance. Blog post December 2017: Lost Holidays When I was growing up life was hard. My mother, myself and two younger sisters were on welfare, and my mother was an…

Is this America and Americans now? …silent?

Inside my head Tectonic plates Move shift bang into each other The screaming, furious Lava spews Fear Ugly memories Hot grief Steaming fright The silent scream rolls over all As it spews Angry, escaping Burning everything is rolls over black and ashen Like The deep cave in my head Where the bad things go

I imagine My birth Was I screaming or terrified Did I know then It just unfolded And crumbled I wasn’t there In my mind In anyone’s thought Super girl in academics And naturally athletic Not loved at home Not belonging The welfare girl Smarter than her family Hate seed was planted against me Fuck You Kathleen Did you feed that seed? Did you decide to hate yourself

MY NOTES FOR MY THERAPIST REALLY….CAN I GET A BREAK Hi Candace, Below is the journal I kept this week to share with you yesterday but was unable to because I was still rattled about my nightmares. I apologize for being abrupt. Praise heaven, I slept really well, peacefully, a full 7 uninterrupted hours to wake feeling refreshed!! I have less trepidation about going to sleep now. …

MY SIDE it’s not liquor Drugs Substances It’s me People should avoid damaged people We can’t fix ourselves We don’t understand what broke When it broke Why it was broken We don’t even remember all the tank shots that hit us It’s a body\mind way of trying to protect 0urselves From the worst The worst Too horrible to bring up Leave it It’s always there Don’t look We don’t look…

July 22, 2018 12:32 am He goes to sleep between 7:30 pm-9-pm. He’s awake though now. He woke at his usual time of 4am. I know he’s exhausted. But … I’m watched I get from the couch to pee ‘What’s wrong? What do you need? What are you doing” This is a hybrid seed Grown Begun Fractured DNA He doesn’t travel outside the USA His various issues And then I…

The Black Hole in your Bra So many of us women use our bra as a pocket. We might put a $20 bill in there for emergency, a key, etc. Well, I was going to an event a in risky neighborhood so I took my diamond jewelry – my 3 carat engagement ring, my 3 1/2 carat forever-ring and my 10 carat tennis bracelet. Ugh ugh ugh. I forgot that…

This morning, Jack Kerouac popped into my head. All I knew was that he was a rare breed from the 60’s with highly-intelligent friends. He was before my time but much of his work is timeless Jack Kerouac quotes: “My witness is the empty sky.” __ Jack Kerouac “[…]the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be…