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April 2016

BAD CIRCUS

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Bad Circus  I grew up for most of my childhood in Long Beach, Long Island.  Like all childhood memories, it seems the snow was much deeper when I was a kid then it ever gets now.  I would jump off the 2nd floor porch into the snow.  It got icy too.  When my younger sister Colleen and I were in elementary school my mother left us alone one afternoon.  We…

No Mediocre – Watch Your Style

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Boy Toy/Jerk Off

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I coached him when he as 7 or 8 in one of the town soccer teams.  He was one of the best players.  I put him every time; he scored multiple times every game.  He came from Eastern Europe and soccer was his family’s sport….spending summer’s overseas kicking a ball around all summer.  My kids went to parochial school.  He went to public school.  I didn’t see him again until…

CopBoy

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It was about 1977 while I was still at Adelphi University, working part-time as a secretary and I had my own awful apartment in a house.  The woman I rented from was weird and would go into my apartment and inspect my belongings when I wasn’t home.  I knew she had been there because she would tell me.  She would accost me as soon as I came home from work…

Rare Prince Video

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When Prince bought back his copyrights from all the labels, he pulled most videos that the labels had money in. “You’ve Got the Look” was one. It’s a fantastic song, and they have great sexual tension. Classic Prince Dig it.   http://www.mojvideo.com/video-prince-ft-sheena-easton-u-got-the-look/0095e502deb08bfa0323

MACY’S – SHAME ON YOU!

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In November 2012 I worked at Macy’s for 6 days.  I went from being paid $110k a year with full executive benefits, 100% medical reimbursement in 1997 to holiday temp work with no benefits for $8.00 an hour and I was ecstatic.  I was thrilled to get out of the house, to have a reason to get dressed up, to be pretty, to put on make-up, to dress my body,…

Chris – My Insane Husband

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  Chris Chris is a good partner for me, sometimes.  Sometimes I want to kick his ass and sometimes I want to bolt.  He is as insane as I am.  We believe each other’s bullshit and we know lie to each other and ourselves.  We are metropolitan, cosmopolitan hermits.  He’s the bad cop and I’m the good cop.  I’m the one who gets into trouble; he’s the one who has…

Couch

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Couch When I fall asleep on the couch I can hear my house The kitchen clock Squeak click of the hands moving The constant hum of the refrigerator I cannot decide if I like its white noise or dislike it’s Inefficient noisiness   Keep my eyes closed I can be so disoriented from my Sleep Am I facing the front of the house or the back Is my head toward…

Gifts of Cliff

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Gifts of Cliff I was my grandmother’s first grandchild. Her favorite. She was good to me. Grandma was proud of how smart of I was. She was also nosy and mean as shit to my mother. She always asked me questions about what my mother was doing and with whom. Sometimes I answered, most times I avoided until  the abuse by my mother’s various men began many years later. Ever since…

Body Image

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Body Image My body is amazing.  It has survived exposure and neglect and yet has never failed me.  I’ve never been sick or injured despite flailing myself about all the time over the last 56 years.  Literally, flailing this body into the throws of everything – my body remains intact – never broken.  I am amazed and humbled and brought joy by my strong, healthy body. I take pleasure in…